Showing posts with label The Maid of Milan. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Maid of Milan. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

My First London Book Launch - at The Chocolate Museum


And now I'm back on Australian soil having had the most varied and interesting five weeks overseas. The first few weeks in Norway were a whirl (and will be covered in my next blog post) while the highlight of my final week in England was catching up with old friends, and attending my book launch at The Chocolate Museum, a lovely atmospheric venue (which served the best coffee with chocolate zest I've ever tasted) and which had an upstairs and downstairs where our book-loving guests could mingle with other writers, friends, bloggers and reviewers.

Waiting to begin... Me (Beverley Eikli), Janet Gover, Choc Lit MD Lyn Vernham, and The Chocolate Museum's Isabelle
Janet Gover reads an extract from Flight to Coorah Creek


Since I was a little girl in Australia and used to read aloud to my younger sisters the series of books I'd written entitled: The School for Witches", I'd dreamed of having a book launch in London. It took a long time to get the first book published (Lady Sarah's Redemption which was published by Robert Hale in 2009) and a few more years before I was actually in London with a book just released. This was my latest and favourite Regency-set drama and intrigue-filled romance, The Maid of Milan, published by the wonderful Choc Lit.
Now it was my turn to talk about The Reluctant Bride, my first book with Choc Lit, and The Maid of Milan,
that was being launched.

Choc Lit's enterprising Luke Roberts came up with the fabulous idea of having the launch at The Chocolate Museum and once I'd firmed up my travel arrangements, a date was set and the word was out. And a very popular event it proved to be, which is no wonder since so many Choc Lit authors were in attendance.
     My goodness, it was fantastic to see so many of them, as well as others from the writing world. Not to mention some old friends of mine whom I'd not seen for 30 years.
I sent my 8-year-old off with a camera. Naturally she wasn't interested in taking shots of people.
Below, in yellow, is my old room mate, Jenny Latham with whom I shared a room at Ames House in Hampstead when we were 18 years old. My time at the old converted mansion at 26 Netherhall Gardens, Hampstead, is branded on my memory. Donated by its owner in 1901 to 'protect the morals of young working girls in London', it housed 24 of us, including a model who'd just made the cover of German Vogue magazine, to a range of young students including myself who was studying costume design during the day and working at Smiles Cafe in Picadilly at night. My Saturday job was to dress up as Smiles the Bear for children's parties. I've had a few odd jobs in my life but this was one of the most dangerous as I was really far too short for the enormous furry bear costume with the Big Bear boots I had to wear to stumble up and down the stairs from the kitchen to the entertainment room.
    Well, I never expected to see Jenny at my launch! The last time we met was during our bicycle and youth hosteling trip around the south-west of England over 25 years ago! What a trooper! I'd been told she was too unwell to travel.
     Also at the launch were my old friends from my childhood in Lesotho, the Chapmans, who'd also travelled a great distance to be at the launch. 

Catching up with old friends from when I was 18 in London (Jenny Latham in yellow) and old friends from Lesotho Days when I was a child, Mark and Pat Chapman and son Adrian Chapman



Janet in the foreground, while in the background Choc Lit publicist Holly La-Touche stands by the door and Luke Roberts looks after the books.



Jenny and me having a chat with Henri Gyland in the background
 Below are my other two friends from my old Hampstead days - both of whom I've not seen for 30 years, Hugh and Robert. It's amazing how easy it is to pick up where one left off when one's reuniting with friends from one's formative youth.
Eivind photographed the two of us while Hugh Jaeger and Robert Porch (friends from Hyelm in Hampstead days from when we were all 18) photographed him photographing us.

Yes, it's hard to believe it's been 30 years since we painted London red as 18-year-olds. Well, we actually didn't ever really paint the town red but we had a lot of fun. We were rather good 18-year-olds, although I do remember one night which put me off Dubonet and ever thinking about smoking for the rest of my life.


Me, Jenny and Jenny's daughter, the lovely, pro-active Camilla, who organised the surprise reunion.
 I wish the book launch could have gone on a good deal longer so that I could have talked to more people. There were so many I felt I really knew through long email correspondence though we'd not met, and others I'd not seen in years whom I'd have loved to have really caught up with, and still others whose names I knew and wanted to meet properly.
     All in all, it was a great evening, and Luke and Lyn and Holly and The Chocolate Museum's Isabelle and Alessandra did a fantastic job to make it one that will remain a wonderful memory forever.

And after an enormously fun evening, Eivind and I took the tube home - and the inevitable selfie.

During the launch Lyn gave me the audiobook of The Reluctant Bride. My first audio book!

Sunday, March 9, 2014

The Maid of Milan Book Tour Begins on Monday

Monday is a busy day. I shall have the first five stops of my book tour and in between checking in to say hello I'll be making a chocolate cake for my darling father-in-law's funeral. He was a much-loved man who lived a rich and event-filled life, and there will be few dry eyes on Tuesday.

Friday, February 21, 2014

Regency Version of 'Dynasty' -The Maid of Milan's first review


Goodness, but it's nerve-wracking waiting for the very first review of one's new book to come out in print.

And below, here it is and I couldn't be more thrilled. I love Robyn's review and how she describes The Maid of Milan as a 'Regency version of Dynasty'.

I did so much rewriting in the final edits that it's nothing like my critique partners and family and anyone else who'd ever read it in draft form would remember. I'd been fired up by some of the thoughts of the Choc Lit 'Tasting Panel' which my fantastic editor, Rachel Skinner, had sent off to me. There were about six pages of 'thoughts' and issues, I suppose you could call them.

First off was that my heroine, Adelaide, needed to be made more sympathetic. That happens in just about every one of my stories. Redemption themes feature in most of my books so in order for my main character to be redeemed they need to start off in a less than flattering light. And I know I load the brush too thickly so that it takes a few 'goes' at chipping away at the too-thick layer of prickliness, or arrogance, so that hopefully, even if my reader doesn't exactly like my heroine straight away, they understand why she is this way - and love her by the end. That's always the plan, anyway.

So, without further ado, here's Robyn's review.

And now it's back to writing my 1960's illegal diamond buying/medicine murder romance set in the African mountain kingdom of Lesotho where I spent my early years.


's review
Feb 19, 14

Read in February, 2014

I have to be honest, when I got this book I thought it was going to be another fluffy Regency bodice ripper romance with some rake in mole skin trousers. Was I wrong! This book is nothing like you would expect. The only way I can describe it, is as a Regency version of Dynasty. It has everything, secrets, lies, blackmail, love triangles, death, drug addiction, jealousy, affairs, scandals, oh and some bodice ripping too- the only thing it is missing is Joan Collins. However, I think Mrs. Henley, Adelaide's mother runs a close second.
Mrs. Henley forces Adelaide to go along with the story that she created in order to save Adelaide, but all it does is eats her away from the inside. She is later put in a position that the only way to get out of one lie is to tell more.
No one is who they seem in this book, except for Tristan. Tristan is truly honourable man with a moral compass who repeatedly saves Adelaide.
Adelaide's only real crime is being young and in love and obeying her mother. Time after time, her loyalty to her mother and her husband are tested. In the end, you learn who the true villain is and why.
The book has a genteel opulence of Anthony Trollope's The Palliser's but underneath the waving fans it is all gritty intrigue.
This is the first book I read by Beverley Eikli and I can say I am now a fan.
The Maid of Milan gripped me from the start and kept me there. I read it in a day, I just couldn't put it down. I highly recommend this unique book.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

What's the latest with Promo?

What a lot of promo there is to do today. I've had two releases out - under my two names - within a very short time. Today is Release Day for Dangerous Gentlemen, my Ellora's Cave Regency Underworld story of a debutante who delves into London's Underworld in order to save her life and ends up facing a moral dilemma as her 'protector' with whom she's fallen in love, is accused of treason.

In the meantime I'm organising - or rather, Goddess Fish is - my Book Tour for The Maid of Milan. 'There's a high price to pay for a life of deception' is the premise, as the beautiful wife of a reformist MP fears her dark past will be revealed with the arrival of her former lover whose lurid poetry has London Society desperate to learn the identity of his 'muse'.

So thanks so much Alison Brideson Alison Stuart - Writer and Helene Young for being hosts on this Tour of my new Choc Lit release. I'd be delighted if anyone else would like to host a post with excerpt. (Some nice prizes to win  ). You can sign up here: http://bit.ly/1omZMiC

And now it's back to writing my Lesotho story.... 

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

There's a high price to pay for a life of deception

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By Beverley Eikli

Isn't she beautiful? She doesn't look like she could tell a white lie much less live one - keeping the biggest secret from the man she loves most.

Not that poor, lovely Lady Leeson always loved the kind and honourable Tristan who nurtured her during her darkest hours and married her three years before, thinking her 'lie' to be quite a different one.

Yesterday my first advance copies of The Maid of Milan jetted their way from the freezing UK to sizzling Gisborne in Victoria, Australia. It'll be available as an e-book from Feb 2 and is a pre-order for the paperback here.

Here's the blurb:

After five years of marriage, Adelaide has fallen in love with the handsome, honourable husband who nurtured her through her darkest hours.

Now Adelaide’s former lover, the passionate poet from whose arms she was torn by her family during their illicit liaison in Milan six years previously has returned, a celebrity due to the success of his book The Maid of Milan.

High society is as desperate to discover the identity of his ‘muse’ as Adelaide is to protect her newfound love and her husband’s political career.

If only the men had not been childhood friends.



Published by Choc Lit
March 2014

www.beverleyeikli.com

And here's an extract which takes place when Adelaide is with her mother who tells her she can't possibly be around when Tristan's boyhood friend, James, comes to visit.

Again, her mother's eyes roamed over the room's lavish appointments.
– if he so much as suspects the weakness and depravity of
your character. You have ever been a disappointment but
you are all I have and I am all you can rely upon. I thought
I’d trained you well, that you were of my mould. How
wrong I was.’
Familiar though this litany was, Adelaide once again
fought the familiar shame which threatened to swamp
her, though she refused to succumb to the tears that had
sprung so readily to her eyes in the early days. In the six
months after she and James had been parted and she’d been
dragged from Milan back to Vienna before being shipped
off to England, all she’d done was cry.
‘Nevertheless, as your mother, I have stood by you
and I remain determined that you shall not squander this
God-given opportunity. Tristan’s continued high regard
is our only salvation, Adelaide. Remember that. Now
come.’ Draining her tea cup, Mrs Henley rose. ‘Let us go
downstairs and find Tristan so we can tell him of Aunt
Gwendolyn’s letter.’
With helpless frustration Adelaide trailed after her
mother. Once again Mrs Henley had taken charge and
Adelaide’s ideas of independence seemed suddenly hopeless,
for if they ran counter to her mother’s she knew who held
the power.
At the moment, it wasn’t Adelaide.
Mrs Henley knocked and they entered as Tristan rose,his forced smile replaced by one of pleasure when he saw
Adelaide. He took a step forward, extending his hand
for hers, the flare in his eyes as intense as the day she
consented to be his wife, and Adelaide felt an unexpected
jolt somewhere in the region of her heart, her determination
bolstered to bridge the distance between them, despite the
oppressive presence of her mother, always a footfall away,
it seemed.
‘Tristan, I—’
She stopped, pulling back as a warm, fragrant breeze
stirred the papers on his desk.
The French doors from the garden had been thrown
open, and the heavy tread of Hessian boots upon the
wooden floor pulled their attention towards the muslin
curtains which swirled in eddies, silhouetting the shape of
a man: a slender man of middle height – the only ordinary
thing about him – dressed in a black cutaway coat and
buff breeches, who materialised before them like a young
demigod, smouldering with an enthusiasm he did nothing
to inhibit, for good manners were always in abeyance to the
passion that ruled James’s life.
‘Tristan!’ Tossing his low-crowned beaver upon the
ottoman, James strode forward, arms outstretched, his
voice taut with emotion.
Nearly four years, it had been, and from first impressions
it was as if nothing had changed. Inky curls framed his
delicately boned face and his eyes were like coals burning
the fire within. No, nothing had changed, she could see,
for James was still like a coiled spring, eager for love,
eager for life, as ready to give as he was to take … without
discernment.
Adelaide froze with nowhere to go, tense with
premonition while shafts of sensation, painful and familiar,
tore through her.
Could this really be happening? Unwillingly, her gaze
was fixed upon James’s profile, dusted with dark stubble,
tapering up to angular cheekbones delineated with the
slivers of sideburns sported by the fashionable Corinthians
of the day.
In four years he could not be so unchanged whereas
she …
She touched her face, her heart. She was a mere husk of
what she’d once been. Tristan knew nothing of the passions
that burned within her when her heart was engaged – and
she didn’t know if he ever would, for suddenly she felt
reduced to nothingness by the force of James’s personality.
She’d been his equal once – a woman of fire and vitality
– and she’d loved him with a savagery that her mother
claimed bordered on insanity. She’d been a child, thrust into
adulthood by this charismatic older man. Married older
man. But as she looked between the two men before her it
was Tristan who made her heart beat faster, as much with
longing as with fear of what he would think of her if he
knew the truth.
James had not seen her; his gaze was focused entirely
upon Tristan, and Adelaide was astonished to see a different
kind of pleasure light up Tristan’s face as he was enveloped
in a welcoming embrace far less restrained than her husband
was used to.
‘Forgive me for coming early, Tristan. I had no choice.’
‘Nonsense!’ The pleasure in Tristan’s voice was like
nothing Adelaide had ever heard. ‘You’d be welcome if
you climbed through the window at midnight for no better
reason than you needed a bed. So good to see you, James.
It’s been far too long.’
She had been forgotten. Rooted to the spot, Adelaide
could only wait to be acknowledged, but how she wished
she could melt between the floorboards.
‘When I heard the weather promised rain and worse,
tomorrow, I admit I acted with my usual thoughtless
spontaneity—’
James halted, perhaps alerted by movement just beyond
his peripheral vision, and Adelaide caught her breath,
wiping her sweating palms nervously on her skirts as he
turned his head to peer into the gloomy recesses beyond
Tristan’s shoulder.
And as her glance met the familiar grey eyes of the one
skeleton in her closet she’d hoped to consign forever to her
past life, she felt the thread of happiness she’d found with
Tristan pull dangerously taut.
The fire in James’s eyes changed to something different
at the sight of her; the telling stillness of his normally
active, healthy body indicated that his senses were fully
alerted, and Adelaide felt hers answer with a sensation akin
to having her steady world ripped from beneath her feet,
leaving her to spiral into orbit until her mother’s icy tones
ripped through the silence.
‘James, I trust you are well.’
‘Mrs Henley. I did not see you.’
They greeted each other with courtesy, concealing the
brittle antipathy Adelaide knew lay just below the surface.
Her mother took a step as if to shield Adelaide from
his dangerous influence. ‘We had not expected to see you,
either, James, as you were due tomorrow and Adelaide and
I’—she feigned regret—‘have been summoned on an urgent
visit to my aunt in Lincolnshire.’
Tristan swung round to face Adelaide who dropped her
gaze and blushed. Leave the explanation to her mother. How
she wished she could be incinerated to a little pile of ashes
with no more of the worries and charades that were her lot.
Instead, she had to remain stoic, keep steady, pull taut that
wayward trembling mouth and corroborate her mother’slie.
‘So lovely to see you again, James. Unfortunately, yes,
Mama and I must leave immediately.’
‘Tristan loves you, Adelaide, but he will not – I promise you
End of Extract
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Thursday, October 31, 2013

Aussie actor was a great icebreaker

Rob took this of me with my 2014 release, behind -
The Maid of Milan. I look a little mealie-mouthed.

I'm very happy to say the costume talk was great, very well attended, people enjoyed it, Romsey Library put on a fabulous afternoon tea, and I sold quite a few books.

I now also have a chauffeur and someone to introduce me, for this, and my upcoming talks...thank you, Rob Greer :)

Rob is one of my former writing students, a charming, charismatic retired stage and screen actor who appeared on Aussie television in favourites like Homocide and Division Four, as well as overseas with English actors, including Derek Nimmo and Sid James.

Not only did Rob pick me up and drive me to Romsey - after DH had laced me into my corset and helped me into my regalia - he provided a spontaneous and hugely appreciated ice-breaker.

I was in a back room doing last-minute preparations as the audience was seating themselves, and when I approached the side entrance to do the talk, Rob was up the front entertaining the room with his jokes. These went down really well, and no sooner had Rob sat down than an Irish gentleman sitting in the front row stood up and told his own joke. So there was my ice breaker, and a wonderful way to get everyone relaxed and already enjoying themselves by the time I walked on to talk about the changes in fashion from 1760 - 1820. One of the women asked Rob if he was my father so he reckoned that at the Kyneton Library talk on November 14th he'll give them some touching anecdote about 'my childhood'. 

Here's a nice added extra: one of the ladies tapped me on the shoulder during the tea, afterwards, and told me her friend had read The Reluctant Bride in a weekend. She added, "My friend said I had to read it, too, so it was just such a coincidence that you were doing this talk in Romsey."

Now everybody, one final thing - please drop by The Romance Reviews End of Year Splash Party http://www.theromancereviews.com/event.php to answer an easy question on The Reluctant Bride in order to win a prize. There are loads of prizes to be won, and my book is up there from November 1 - 5.

I'd love to see you! 







Monday, September 23, 2013

Read Excerpts from The Reluctant Bride - here...

But first, here's an update on edits for The Maid of Milan which requires a tremendous amount of work to get it ready for its October 10 deadline. I expect I'll get there but the timing has coincided with school holidays and with a pilot husband flying long haul it is challenging to do any kind of work with children making regular demands - as they should be entitled to do when they've got mummy around and they're on holiday:)

I'll get there, though. I'm at page 135 out of 375 so my early morning sessions which start at 5am when the house is silent, are paying off.

In other wonderful news, I just sold the Large Print rights of the final two of my three Regencies first published by Robert Hale, to Ulverscroft. Now Lady Sarah's Redemption (my very first book) and A Little Deception (which was shortlisted Favourite Historical for 2011 and which I extensively revised last year) will join Lady Farquhar's Butterfly, which was always a bit of a favourite.

Lady Farqhar's Butterfly is due for ebook release on September 30th or thereabouts, and I'm excited about that. I've always liked this story which is a psychological study of a woman branded an adulteress and stripped of her infant son by her vengeful late husband. There's a big underlying mystery at the heart of it, too, as she seeks to reclaim what is hers, first through deception and ultimately through very different means.

But now here's the blurb for the WORK IN PROGRESS  -  The Maid of Milan




After two years of marriage, Adelaide has fallen in love with the handsome, honourable husband who nurtured her through her darkest hours.

Now Adelaide’s former lover, the passionate poet from whose arms she was torn by her family during their illicit liaison in Milan six years previously has returned, a celebrity due to the success of his book The Maid of Milan.

High society is as desperate to discover the identity of his ‘muse’ as Adelaide is to protect her newfound love and her husband’s political career.

If only the men had not been childhood friends.



Published by Choc Lit
March 2014

www.beverleyeikli.com

And now for Excerpts from ..

THE RELUCTANT BRIDE




Chapter One
Spring 1813

‘It’s not a sin, unless you get caught.’

The gentle breeze seemed to whisper Jack’s teasing challenge, its soft, silken fingers tugging at Emily’s ingrained obedience. She put down her basket and stared with longing at the waters below, sweat prickling her scalp beneath her poke bonnet as desire warred with fear of the consequences.

‘Where’s your sense of adventure, Em?’

Still resisting, Emily closed her eyes, but the wind’s wicked suggestiveness was like the caress of Jack’s breath against her heated cheek; daring Emily to shrug aside a lifetime of dutiful subservience – again – and peel off her clothes, this time to plunge into the inviting stream beneath the willows.

She imagined Jack’s warm brown eyes glinting with wickedness. Taunting her like the burr that had worked its way into the heel of her woollen stockings during her walk.

Exhaling on a sigh, Emily opened her eyes and admitted defeat as she succumbed to the pull of the reed-fringed
waters.

Desire had won, justified by practicality. If she had to remove one stocking to dislodge the burr she might as well remove both.

Scrambling down the embankment, she lowered herself onto a rock by the water’s edge. Her father would never know. If he glanced from his study in the tower room, where he was doubtless gloating over his balance sheet, he’d assume she was a village lass making her way along the track. Emily had never seen him interest himself in the poor except …

Like most unpleasant memories, she tried to cast this one out with a toss of her head, still glad her father had never
discovered what she’d witnessed from her bedroom window one evening five years ago: the curious sight of Bartholomew
Micklen ushering the beggar girl who’d arrived on his doorstep into his carriage.

Then climbing in after her before it rumbled down the driveway and out of sight.

Now was just another of those moments when Emily was glad her father remained in ignorance. Her insurance, should she need it, was that she knew a few of her father’s secrets the excise men might just want to know.

By the time the first stocking had followed Emily’s boots onto the grassy bank she was bursting with anticipation for her swim.

What did one more sin matter when she’d be Mrs Jack Noble in less than a week?

END OF EXCERPT #1

EXCERPT #2

In this excerpt Angus has visited the woman he's loved from afar to tell her that her fiance has just been killed. Unfortunately he tells her a lie to spare her pain; a lie that returns to haunt him after he's made her his 'reluctant bride'.

Major Angus McCartney was out of his depth.

He glanced at the clock on the mantelpiece. Only five minutes in this gloomy, oppressive parlour after the women
had arrived and he was questioning his ability to complete his mission, a feeling he’d not experienced before Corunna
four years before.

He’d been unprepared for the assault on his senses unleashed by the beautiful Miss Micklen. He shifted position once more, fingering the letters that belonged to her. For two years he’d carried the memory of the young woman before him as a confident, radiant creature in a white muslin ball gown with a powder-blue sash. Now her tragic, disbelieving gaze unleashed a flood of memory, for in her distress she bore no resemblance to the paragon of beauty at the Regimental Ball, a bright memory in an otherwise tormented year after he’d been invalided out of Spain. Clearly Miss Micklen did not remember him.

She’d remember him forever now: as the harbinger of doom, for as surely as if he’d pulled the trigger he’d just consigned her hopes and dreams to cinders.

She turned suddenly, catching him by surprise, and the painful, searing memory of the last time he’d confronted such grief tore through him.

Corunna again. As if presented on a platter, the image of the soldier’s woman he’d assisted flashed before his eyes, forcing him to draw a sustaining breath as he battled with the familiar self-reproach which threatened to unman him.

He reminded himself he was here to do good.

‘A skirmish near the barracks?’ the young woman whispered, resting her hands upon her crippled mother’s shoulders. ‘Last Wednesday?’

‘That is correct, ma’am.’

Mrs Micklen muttered some incoherent words, presumably of sympathy. Angus pitied them both: Miss Micklen digesting her sudden bereavement, and the mother for her affliction. The older woman sat hunched in her chair by the fire, unable to turn her head, her claw-like hands trembling in her lap.

He cleared his throat, wishing he’d taken more account of his acknowledged clumsiness with the fairer sex. He was not up to the task. He’d dismissed the cautions of his fellow officers, arrogantly thinking he’d be shirking his duty were he not the one to deliver the news. It was condolences he should be offering, and he had not the first idea how to appeal to a frail feminine heart.

Nor was he accustomed to the lies tripping off his tongue as he added, ‘A tragic mishap, ma’am, but Captain Noble acquitted himself with honour to the end.’

Miss Micklen’s gaze lanced him with its intensity. Tears glistened, held in check by her dark lashes. ‘I can’t believe it,’ she whispered, moving to draw aside the heavy green velvet curtain and stare at the dipping sun. ‘Jack told me he was on the Continent.’

Choosing not to refute Jack’s lie, he said carefully, ‘An altercation occurred between a group of infantry in which I was unwittingly involved. When Captain Noble came to my assistance he was struck a mortal blow to the head. I’m sorry, Miss Micklen.’

He wished he knew how to offer comfort. The beautiful Miss Micklen of the Christmas Regimental Ball had seemed all-powerful in her cocoon of happy confidence. Unobtainable as the stars in heaven, he’d thought as he’d watched her skirt the dance floor in the arms of the unworthy Jack Noble. For so long he’d carried Miss Micklen’s image close to his heart and this was the first time he’d been reminded of Jessamine.

God, how weary he was of war.
END OF EXCERPT #2

EXCERPT #3

Angus and Emily, newly married, have just been visited unexpectedly by Angus’s brother and his unsuitable consort. Emily, embarrassed by her highly pregnant state and knowing it will cause gossip amongst Angus’s family, reacts in this scene to her husband’s apologies for the situation Emily has just confronted.


With deliberate care Emily set down the plates once more and turned to look at her husband through narrowed eyes.

‘For contaminating me with a lady of dubious repute? But Angus, how much worse a contaminant would I have been had you not married me?’ She patted her swollen belly. ‘You’d be apologising to your brother. A fallen woman—’

‘Don’t speak like that.’ His wide-set eyes burned with undeserved defence of her. ‘Men’s impulses can be ungovernable, but ladies do not suffer such … urges … You
were … taken advantage of.’

Emily stared at him. She sucked in a long, quavering breath as her simmering anger came finally to the boil. Is that what he believed? That she was insensible to passion? And that was a good thing?

‘What would you say if I told you that my impulses were every bit as ungovernable as Jack’s?’ She could barely control her anger sufficiently to speak. For days she had forced her
feelings into the background, using the same emotional device against her unwanted husband as she had when her father insulted her, shutting out the hurt by erecting a barrier
as impenetrable as steel.

Now, feeling surged through her, blackening her vision and causing her to sway. She put her hand on the back of the sofa to steady herself.

Angus stood awkwardly by the door, as if unsure whether to move closer to support her, or beat a tactful retreat.

Emily glared at him. ‘What if I told you that I was so consumed by passion in Jack’s arms I would not have heeded the Blessed Virgin Mary cautioning me against the temptations of the flesh?’ She tried to regulate her breathing, but the rage was clawing its way further up her body, threatening to make her its puppet. She, who never lost her temper. ‘I loved Jack. I was his slave in passion, every bit as culpable as he. If you are so concerned for virtue, spare your condemnation of innocent Miss Galway. You need only cast your eyes upon your wife to be singed by my sin. There! I have confessed my true nature. Whatever you thought of me before, you cannot but think worse of me now.’ She registered the horror in his eyes and was glad for it. Much better that she banish any pretence between them.

She’d never expressed anger as poisonous as this. At first it frightened her, then it sent exhilaration pulsing through her. Her love for Jack had been cut off at the root. Now hatred filled her veins, making her feel alive again. ‘And so you know, I care nothing for your opinion,’ she added.

She managed to remain upright, though her vision came in waves. She could feel her strength leaving her, but she had to spit out the truth so he’d have no illusions as to the kind of woman he’d married. A woman no good man deserved.

‘You married me because you needed a wife. I married you so I could keep my child. We made a contract. My body is yours to do with as you please, but that is all you will ever have. My thoughts, my feelings, my love will be forever out of bounds to you.’

END OF EXCERPT

EXCERPT #4

In this scene Angus has just proposed to Emily his plan of inviting Emily’s father to visit.

‘If you think he’ll forgive me you know nothing of my father!’ She jerked forward in the bed. ‘Reconciliation is not possible!’

Instead of declaring roundly, as Jack might have done, that he’d make sure it all came to pass, Angus took a while to gather his thoughts. ‘You are respectably married,’ he said slowly. ‘The child will be born legitimate. You’ve brought no shame upon your family. Restoring ties between you and your father is important.’

‘No, you don’t understand.’ She was close to tears as she gripped his hands which were suddenly clasping hers. ‘Papa is vengeful. I sinned. If he could find another way to compound my suffering, my shame, he’d do it.’

Angus hunkered down to take her in his arms and as she was squeezed gently but firmly she felt a strange sensation in the pit of her stomach. Not the movement of the baby and something that was quite definitely more than just gratitude for his concern.

‘You belong to me now, not your father,’ he soothed.

With her ear pressed against his bare chest once again, Emily could hear the strong staccato beat of his heart. The strength of his arms around her was strangely comforting, for indeed the domineering spectre of Bartholomew Micklen did seem diluted.

Gently he lay her back down on the pillow and for a long moment she stared at him as if he were not the husband forced upon her whom she despised.

Still, it was important Angus understand. She clasped her hands and pleaded, ‘Don’t petition my father for forgiveness. It will only give him another focus for his dissatisfaction with me.’ She turned her head away.

‘Then I want to be the means by which you are reconciled. I can do that, Emily.’

She sucked in a quavering breath. ‘I don’t know why you’re so concerned that I mend ties with my father. It’s not as if I came with a dowry dependent upon his goodwill.’

Almost viciously she added, ‘And it’s not as if you married for love.’

In the lengthening silence she regretted her words, but it was too late. Miserably she stared at the wall.

Angus stroked her hands which plucked at the bedcovers. Then, leaning over her, he kissed her brow, his murmured words filling her with immediate warmth only to be swept away by fear of her own failings. ‘My dear Emily, I married where I thought I might find it.’